Reassess, Recommit, Reset, Rebrand, Reignite, Reflect – Repeat

By 9pm last night, I had deactivated my Facebook and Instagram accounts and set my mind to the idea of disconnecting from social media, among other things, for at least 90 days. I actually deactivated Facebook yesterday morning and must admit to a lightness of spirit that overcame me. I kept up the Instagram facade for the remainder of the day, though its impending deactivation stayed at the back of my mind (it made it less enjoyable to scroll truthfully). I had some trouble resting, knowing that 90 days was going to start tomorrow.

Now here I am at the end of day 1 feeling a little tired, a little sad, and yet a little accomplished. It is hitting me that I have a lot to do in these 90 days and I’m nervous about how and if I’m going to accomplish everything, or even follow through:

Do I contradict myself?

Very well then I contradict myself,

(I am large, I contain multitudes.)

“Song of Myself” Walt Whitman

Disconnecting from social media is honestly the least of my worries with this reset. Though I haven’t planned everything out, I have some goals, some intended outcomes, and I’m really just at the start.

I started the day easily enough. I even felt rather happy this morning. By 2:30 this afternoon, some anxiety crept in. I’m still working through that this evening. With this disconnect, I am not able to completely “disconnect,” at least not in the same ways I have been. Scrolling through social media was an escape, a way to veg out after long days. Without that escape, I am being forced to face myself in some different ways. This is Day 1…